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But as I said before, what I know has nothing at all to do with how I feel. These clueless, creepy, weirdos with no real sense of reality. If I ever were to meet someone in the future, I have a strong feeling that it would “just happen” in the same sort of way. But I really wish everyone would leave me the hell alone about it in the meantime.And right now, I feel like my marriage and our promised time and years together, was violently pushed into an imaginary ocean where I can’t see it, and I dont know how to swim to it. And they always have that look on their face, like they are either a pedophile, serial killer, or chronic masturbater. I am scared that I will put my heart out there, and get rejected. A music chat room where two people ended up talking about music for 5 hours, deceloped a friendship, then a relationship, then love. I really cannot imagine ever actively going out to seek it, or “dating” again. I just want to live my life, and maybe somebody will come along and want to live it with me. I have accomplished so many things in the past 2 years, things that I am proud of.
They stated the widowers convinced them that they had adequately healed and wanted to be in a committed relationship. But, it happens often enough that it’s important to warn women who get involved with widowers about the possibility. She cares for him and feels they could have an incredible life together, but her guilt has shackled her. My first advice – the same thing I tell all women dating widowers: Protect yourself from getting hurt.
And then, some time later, reality hits the widowers. Last week, a woman named Elaine asked for my advice regarding a widower she’s dating. He finally revealed that his hints about his feelings for her had been ignored. She was shocked and reluctant to date him, not wanting to jeopardize their friendship and feeling she was betraying her deceased friend. Then, I told her to stop focusing on the guilt, and start focusing on not letting him get away to another woman, that he would eventually go elsewhere if they don’t hook up because he wants and seems ready to love again.
Don’t they understand that wherever I go, he comes with me? There might be a day in the future when I can see myself with “someone else” – but that day is not now. It feels to me that I can be in love with someone else, when I am madly and deeply in love with my dead husband. Well, he is right about that, even though that is not how he meant it.
Right now, the idea of “someone else” makes me feel physically sick. I know, logically, that being with someone else is not betraying him. Let me take off my shades so you can see my eyes, so you can see Im attractive. But in the past 2 years since being without my husband, these are the types of people who approach me.
Seated next to me was a very young military wife and mother, all of maybe 24 years old. She began striking up conversation with me, because we were both terrified of the bumpy takeoff, and shared a second or ten of bonding in our mutual fear of impending death upon crashing. I know some good clubs and places, I could hook you up with some hot guys. I’m very blunt and I tell it like it is.” I felt like saying: “You’re also an asshole”, but I was stuck on a 6-hour flight next to this clueless dummy, and suddenly the smell of other people’s poop didn’t seem nearly as terrible as being wedged next to this person who showed zero compassion or understanding for what my life might be like.
Our bonding time ended with the inevitable question that you always get from a stranger: How I answer this question changes daily, depending on the situation, my mood, and what response I feel, at that moment, might cause me the least amount of pain and anguish. When we arrived back in New York and at Baggage Claim, we both waited by the carousel for our things.I remember, awhile back, one widow friend telling me that after awhile, she took hers off, because she was no longer married, so wearing it “felt like a lie.” I remember thinking to myself: This entire existence feels like a lie, if you want to know the truth. How on earth do you just It doesn’t make any sense to me. I have been asked and probed rudely about the dating thing by friends, non-friends, co-workers, family, and total strangers.Every morning that I wake up and live in this universe where my husband no longer gets to breathe air; where my future was stolen from me in a flash and replaced with darkness and confusion, where his heart stopped beating and mine stopped caring; feels like one gigantic, ugly, vicious lie. Never was the very fine line between the comfort of the widowed community and the return to the harsh, brutal world more clear than on my return flight from San Diego to New York, after spending a week in the understanding company of a couple hundred other widowed “family” members at I was seated in the very last row, in the Aisle Seat, right next to the restrooms.When the wife died, Elaine never gave dating him a thought. And without being frivolous, I told her if her friend didn’t write back, then her friend had granted Elaine approval to move forward with him.I would like to hear from widowers and women who have dated widowers regarding their feelings about dating after the loss of a spouse.A man who looked to be in his late 30’s, Latino, squished himself into the middle seat, right next to me. When I got off of the subway the other day, the guy who kept asking me out, followed me into the station.Tags: Adult Dating, affair dating, sex dating